Seriously

brain_washed @ 2008-12-18T17:35:00

2008-12-18T23:45:59Z

I have been trying to get hired at my work because I am a temp still and have been for 10 months now.

My supervisor really likes me, so I have been telling him to put in a good word for me when he has the time because if i am a temp for a year and don't get hired on i loose my job, which would be in the middle of a semester at school and would really suck to have to find another.

When i get to work this tuesday everyone one is chit chatting, and I can see people crying, so i figure someone must have died. Well someone did die, and it was my supervisor.

He had a heart attack Monday night after work and died instantly.
My last hope of getting the job very suddenly died.

FUCK!
I feel bad for his family. Right before Chirstmas.

...Then i find out all of the temp employees were laid off on monday.

except me.

now i have no idea what to think, but they keep training people in my area. I think they might still try and fire me, assholes, but who knows.

in other news i finished my first semester of college!
I think I did pretty....pretty........pretty..good. I had to juggle a full time job and full time school so i didn't get to study as often as i would have liked. but i got an A in math and engineering, which are the only two classes I really care about the grade.

a month off and 9 out of the next 14 off from work, so i am feeling pretty good.

all i need now is some good new music.

brain_washed @ 2008-11-30T06:24:00

2008-11-30T12:47:52Z

I am in a musical rut.
I can't seem to write any music that i find appealing recently.
it probably has something to do with the fact that i hate my job.
oh well.

after this semester i am going to look for a new job.

::On a different note, i just drove my sister to the airport, and I love it when its winter and dark and morning out.

to celebrate this wonderful occasion i am making a plate full of bacon and eggs.

drive safe.

brain_washed @ 2008-09-11T15:39:00

2008-09-11T20:47:42Z

I am going to my girlfriends grandmothers wedding this weekend in chicago.

I bought my very first actual nice suit for the occasion.

I would post a picture but i don't have one, so maybe some other time.

This is also the weekend the kitten leaves so when i get home i just might have to go kitten shopping...

we will see about that though.

I am also in the market for a new job, mine is getting really slow and they are cutting hours.
Stupid FDA.

oh well. anyone have some job ideas?

NOT FRANKIES PIZZA FAUST.

brain_washed @ 2008-08-30T11:25:00

2008-08-30T16:26:59Z

so i cycled from my place to NHCC to go to a study group and no one showed up.

way to go team.

a little bit about me

2008-08-28T22:26:28Z

I Started school on monday.
I moved out.
I live across the street from allison and i didn't know it until last saturday.
I am watching a kitten for the next month.
I need to buy a suit to go to a fancy wedding.
I took a java class and i really like it.
I was going to buy a road bike and start racing but i think i'm going to get a laptop instead.
Watching a kitten makes me want one of my own.

The guy next to me is watching episodes of power rangers and he looks to be in his mid thirties. man i hope his pants are on.

FFXIII needs to come out.

brain_washed @ 2008-07-09T15:09:00

2008-07-09T20:10:56Z

I lost my phone.
So if you tried to get ahold of my the last few days i'm sorry for not responding.

i am using my old phone now so i'm good to go.

I turned 21.
i moved out.
and everything is going well.

brain_washed @ 2008-04-25T16:51:00

2008-04-25T22:07:20Z

Yesterday at about noon a received a message from my boss at ups asking me what i was up to and if i had heard about what had happened. I called him back and found out one of my friends overdosed on Methadone.

Methadone is a narcotic pain reliever, similar to morphine.

Turns out he went to bed last sunday and never woke up. no one found him until one in the afternoon the next day.

i went to the hospital today after work to go see him, and that was the hardest thing i have done in a while. He is in the icu and hooked up to a breathing machine and they don't think he is going to make it.

i walked in and he is just laying there sporadically moving his arms while machines keep him alive.

its weird to think just a few months ago a was giving him rides to and from work everyday and hanging out all the time.

i'm glad no one was there when i went because i don't even know what i would say to his family, his dad saw me in the hallways and said thanks for coming to see him and all i could say was yup. i felt like an idiot.

sometimes life sucks.

sorry for the downer entry.

brain_washed @ 2008-04-16T16:06:00

2008-04-16T21:08:59Z

that one snowmobile place on 81 is burning to the ground as i type this.

brain_washed @ 2008-04-13T19:22:00

2008-04-14T00:36:10Z

well this is the first time i have been home with more than an hour of free time in 3 weeks so here goes.

I quit the band a about a month ago. There were a lot of things i just wasn't happy with, so i decided to go in a different direction.

I now work a ton of hours. about 70 -90 hours a week i believe. split 2 ways between boston scientific and dominos pizza. I am saving up all of my money in order to move out in a few months hopefully. i'm shooting for july or august.
I'm going to go to community college this fall which should be pretty sweet.

i still have not cut my hair and honestly i don't plan on it anytime soon, both jobs are okay with it and i have grown quite attached to it...litterally.

all in all i have not hung up my music spurs, in fact i am writing a bunch of songs in my free time that should start popping up in maybe 6 months realistically.

who knows.

as for right now, i like what i am doing and if i didn't i wouldn't be doing it.

brain_washed @ 2008-03-21T04:33:00

2008-03-21T09:35:39Z

why is everything awesome when filmed with a high speed camera

Softcore Porn

2008-02-20T08:06:59Z

Now that i have your attention, i wanted to talk about softcore porn.

I was over at Faust's house the other night and we were flipping through channels late at night and found that there were a variety of softcore porns on.

I just want to say that these movies are ridiculous!

Outlandish plots, terrible acting, ridiculous scenarios, and the reason you keep watching isn't to find out if your three heroic lead girls can find the idol of pu-nani, escape the flaming skulls that guard the tomb, seduce the the mistress of the waterfall who doesn't know english in order to find the location to the secret tomb, or come back alive, its to see some god damn penetration AND IT NEVER HAPPENS.

Hence forth i think there should be ratings on softcore porn so you know what you are getting into before you become trapped into a giant disappointment..

here are a few we came up with.

LRVS - This program contains Long range vagina shots that amount to nothing.
UC - This Program contains Ugly chicks, Don't waste your time.
NP - This program contains no penetration, its a softcore porn you moron.
TN - Turn-back now warning, trust me you would be better off watching something else.

All in all softcore pron is meant to arouse the mind more than the body, but it come across like a really crappy comedy movie, and the only reason you are laughing is because it is so terrible. They should all be placed in a cargo ship with the new larry the cable guy movie and driven into a volcano... or fed to sharks.

brain_washed @ 2008-02-14T03:20:00

2008-02-14T09:22:35Z

I was talking to faust the yesterday about how people still read peoples livejournals but hardly any comments are left.

its like its like voyeurism except instead of sex its like watching people's minds.

and livejournal is that window shade that didn't get pulled down quite far enough, whether on purpose or not.

Follow up.

2008-02-13T03:49:08Z

I am supposed to talk to that creative writing class in late feb.

so i have one of two options.

Lie to them, and if i get caught say that i was just being creative, or talk about what i actually do.
either one would be pretty funny, because she wants me to come in and perform some music, talk about writing, and talk about how i "made it"

so i think i am going to write up a couple of 3 to 5minute speeches.
she wants me to play but i have no idea what i could play as a one man bassist act. Maybe a little victor wooten excerpt.

Best case: I walk out of there feeling good about myself for inspiring(or lying to) a bunch of kids that could go on to do great things.
worst case: i give a terrible presentation and the kids walk away with a funny story about how that random kid showed up and gave a terrible presentation.

either one would be pretty fun/funny although it makes me incredibly nervous.

brain_washed @ 2008-02-12T03:58:00

2008-02-12T10:06:07Z

Just recently got my hands on lost season 3 (thank you amy) and it is very good.
i want to catch up so i can watch the episodes when they play on t.v.

I went to the high school last night and Janet Johnsen saw me and asked me to come in and talk to her creative writing class.
she is crazy, but i think i'm going to do it.

why ?

Because i have this personal philosophy that if you are presented with an opportunity that is out of the ordinary you should pursue said opportunity.

you only live once, and really whats the worst that could happen?

brain_washed @ 2008-01-30T23:41:00

2008-01-31T05:50:40Z

I can solve the rubik's cube.

i went to dave and busters for the first time the other day with my brother.
It was strange, like an over-sized chuck e cheese for adults. I was half way expecting to see mike miller fixing games.

and conan shaved his beard.

brain_washed @ 2008-01-12T22:30:00

2008-01-13T04:31:11Z

Party at my house tonight.

call if you want to come, or just show up.

brain_washed @ 2008-01-08T03:26:00

2008-01-08T09:44:58Z

Went and saw " El Orfanato " with alida yesterday.
It looked like it could go either way by the preview, but it ended up being pretty good. It was more of a thriller than a horror movie but it had some really intense moments. I dont think i have ever jumped as bad at a movie as i did in this. Overall, it was pretty good.

I hate waking up to an alarm. that sounds like an incredibly lazy thing to say but its true.

brain_washed @ 2008-01-07T03:36:00

2008-01-07T09:51:22Z

i wish i had my own recording studio.

brain_washed @ 2007-12-06T04:44:00

2007-12-06T10:47:32Z

So when the earth runs out of oil there will be a third industrial revolution.

I hope this happens in my lifetime.

brain_washed @ 2007-12-02T18:12:00

2007-12-03T00:13:25Z

grapefruit flavored drinks smell like body oder.

curb your enthusiasm

2007-12-02T10:20:01Z

The new season is so funny.

i was a little unsure at first but after seeing some episodes i am confident in saying the best season yet.

so damn funny.

and for faust.

Dreams.

2007-11-29T12:22:21Z

i've been thinking a lot about dreams recently.

I used to have dreams and then little portions would come true.

for instance in the tenth grade i had a dream that i was backstage at a place that at the time i had no clue where it was, and i was holding a red bass and walking down a small crowded hallway.

then it came true the first time i played the triple rock.
the red bass, backstage, the same cramped hallway.

I remember thinking how fucking weird it was that i had seen it 3 years before in a dream.

Part of me thinks its just a self fulfilling prophecy. You think about something and eventually you are going to notice it in real life or guide yourself into the situation "unknowingly" when its really on the back burner of your brain.

but the other part of me likes to think about slaughter house five, and the sort of life time continuum where everything has already happened, and is happening all at the same time, and that maybe you could tap into that knowledge in your sleep to catch a quick glimpse into a distorted future.

I think i just like it because it sounds so fantastical, like there is a way to peer into the future. Which goes against most of the things i have come to believe about life.

-you are born
-you live
-you die
no afterlife, no god, no heaven, no hell, no reincarnation, no ghosts, no karma. Everything that falls into those categories is just a way that people fill in the loneliness in their lives, or to make everything seem more exciting than it really is because they can't except the cold reality that one day we will all die, we will all be forgotten, and there isn't a damn thing you can do about it.

i guess i can't really explain it, the whole dream thing.
I just wish i knew more about it.
What is wish it could be is probably better than what it is.
Oh well.
dreams are sweet.

brain_washed @ 2007-04-29T00:35:00

2007-04-29T05:53:25Z

went to my cousin's wedding today.

it was ok.

started out on the right foot with chocolate snack packs.
then onto church, where the lord beckoned me to sing.

and i answered as loud and deep as i possibly could.

haha i got so many terrible looks but i realized there was nothing they could say about it because its church, and i was singing the songs correctly.
it was loud, deep, and terrible.

but it was hilarious.

my hair is getting pretty long now.
i can get the whole thing into a pony tail.

i just wish i could grow a sweet beard.
oh well.

i watched the fast and the furious 3 with faust cus it was on-demand.
soooo cheesy, and all i could think about was how many kids probably ran out of the theater after that movie and jumped in shitty honda's and their parents cars and peeled out of the parking lots and raced each other all the way home.

oh boy.
haha

good to go.

2007-03-11T09:22:33Z

300 was good.

the only bad part about the movie was the over joyed gelatinous cube of a mystery man to my right.

between his pungent odors and ~~witty~~ shitty comments on the movie, i had the pleasure of listening to his heavy breathing, i guess its not his fault he is overweight. really i am just being mean because he took my armrest. fucker.

Then some kid behind me let out a fart at the worst possible point in the movie. although i cant really be mad about that one because you could tell he was trying his hardest to hold it in, which made it pretty damn funny.

i guess that is what the whole movie going experience is about. haha. if you want to see a movie on opening night, you have to endure the people in this world you would otherwise avoid.

other than that life is pretty much normal i guess.
the house is going back up for sale.
emily and i are getting a place sometime around july or august.
i have been reading all the books that i have put off for the last few years.
and the band is going to california to record in april. hopefully.

oh and the presidents of the united states of america are back together.

i hope everyone remembers to "spring ahead" one hour today !

oh boy.

2007-02-16T04:20:31Z

mexico was great.

i got to use my spanish after all these years of learning and just sitting on it.
i swam in the ocean for the very first time.
i went snorkeling for the first time.

i feel like going to school.

but until that happens.
the band is starting to take steps in the right direction.
cali tour in march.
and writing new music
i just need to find a muse of somesorts and write write write.

anyways.

v-day fell apart.
and i am sorry again.
had to bring my mom to the dr. in the middle of dinner.
not my fault and i can't be mad.
i just hate letting people down.